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Monday, October 31, 2011
7:38 PM
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Every time it all comes crashing down, I realise how wrong I was from the very start, and then comes the regret and that fucked up void that tells me if I had done it right from the beginning, everything would be okay now. Maybe if I had done it right from the beginning I'd feel something other than misery and I suppose (not feel) numbness for the majority of this pathetic existence. I just wish I could live someone else's life all of the time. I can't help but think every day I go to school is another day I won't have to come back. I just wish I could disappear.
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Sunday, October 16, 2011
11:01 PM
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Heaven knows I'm miserable.
Had a dream I met the perfect boy the other day. He was wearing a "The Smiths" shirt, and eerily enough, that same day I head one of The Smiths songs on the radio! Not only is it slim pickings to hear that type of music on the radio, but the fact that it was directly after my lovely dream. I thought I was about to encounter some amazing act of fate...I didn't! Oh the woe!
On a separate but slightly related note, I don't know why a boy with such good taste in movies and music is friends with such a shallow person like you.
Labels: dream, perfect guy, the smiths
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10:55 PM
entry title:
Potholes in society.
I actually dislike you an enormous amount, you pompous, arrogant, ignorant cunt. You've transformed into some attention seeking narcissist and I can't believe I have to put up with your SHIT. You're so oblivious to how other people feel. You're so oblivious to how shit other people feel, and you act like you care, but you don't. You find reasons to tear people down, and everyone else might not see it, but I do, and you will never be my best friend, regardless of whether or not you think I'm yours. Immature fuck, get over yourself.
Labels: rant, shit people
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Saturday, October 8, 2011
9:53 PM
entry title:
Bags galore.
There are these awesome North Face backpacks I really want. Their jackets are so amazing warm and versatile and these backpacks are so gorgeous. They were a part of the Japanese "Purple Label" range, and there are plain ones or patterned ones that I've seen, definite need/want!!
Labels: backpack, materialistic me, northface
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Don’t eat, you’re gonna get fatter. Don’t talk, you’re making yourself
look fucking stupid. Don’t laugh, it’s annoying as fuck. Don’t try
making a connection with him, you’re becoming more pathetic with each
attempt. Don’t hold on, you’re going to fucking let go sooner or later
anyways. Don’t expect someone to make an effort with you, you’re just
gonna let yourself down again. Don’t try, whats the fucking point? Don’t
cry, you’re fucking weak. Don’t feel anything anymore, numbness is all
you fucking know now. Don’t hope for freedom, these chains are never
going to be cut loose. Ever. Don’t even breathe; it’s fucking pointless.
Pretty much. Even the shit I write on here isn't as open as it used to be.
Labels: #suchismylife, shit people
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9:40 PM
entry title:
Wakey!Wakey!
The sound of this band is fantastic! The touch of violin makes them even more amazing. Mike Grubbs sings with quite a bit of emotion, it's actually a little overwhelming. I love how unique they are, and it's easy on the ears so you fall in love with the songs instantly. I love their album artwork as well. They've saved my life this week.
Labels: music, new obsession, wakeywakey
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9:24 PM
entry title:
Update
Oh gosh it's been way to busy. Among maintaining the study schedule and a social life my mind is about to explode and my body is ready to collapse. It's been good though. Keeping busy has definitely helped my mental state. Dreading school. Dreading having to be around 95% of the people at school. Dreading exams and the possible end of my summer 11/12 if I do terribly. Feeling like an idiot because of the past week, I mean, who wouldn't chose _________ over _____ or anything else for that matter.
Labels: #suchismylife, holidays, school, shit people
